Let's Jump

April 6, 09

By stepping out of the boat I made myself vlunerable... and a fight ensued. The battle was on to overcome everything raging within me to go into the self preservation mode. All "my" thoughts, those unseen voices from hell, screamed at me to retreat into the safety of "myself", to put up walls and withdraw from anyone or anything with the potential to cause me pain. "Self.... a place of false safety.

But my spirit wants to fight, and fight I will! With all of my heart and everything in me I will fight because I don't want to ever again live in the "safe" place. I want to be a risk taker for Yawah, for Yeshua. I want to keep stepping out of the boat and off the cliff... each time believeing that THIS time I won't start to sink. THIS time I won't crash to my face. THIS time the only thing that'll get wet is the bottom of my feet and I'll soar on eagle's wings.

I don't want to dwell in the safety zone. My God isn't a safe god. He's a wonderful, awesome, mighty God and He IS love.... but He ain't safe. He takes risks. He took a risk loving me. He took a risk on becoming human. He took a risk on the cross. If I am to experience the fullness of Him living though me then I will have to take risks. I will risk loving those who don't, or can't love me back. I will risk giving when I am need. I will risk starting a journey even though I don't SEE the provision with my natural eye.

If Jesus could fall asleep in the stern of the boat while a storm raged around Him, then I can risk resting with my head on His chest when storms rage around me. More and more I KNOW that the safest place to be is wildy, recklessly, outrageously abandoned to chasing after God, pursuing and living out the dreams HE has placed in me... and at the same time resting in His arms. Sometimes that will mean not only stepping off the cliff.... but jumping off of it.... in the dark.

OK God, I'm not ready, but I KNOW You are.... LET'S JUMP!